come over

what's a blog if it dissolves in water?

i am absorbed and attempting to absorb.

deplete

get old
or get told to grow up faster. i've been an adult since i first opened my eyes.
hush
dear
hush
dear
is it fear
or is it really wrong?

darme

i am afraid of having nothing to give.

i am more afraid of having nothing to get.

coerce -e+ion

ionize
there are valence electrons between me and my mind.
coercion can only occur when the coerced doesn't desire the achieved end result.
remember that, boys,
while you're playing touch football.

fading to right light if i can bear the difference in shade

i am trying, if it's worth a try.
everyone's insides are looking a little grey, a little blue and white.
i will find the drops of life in living and increase in measure.
water logged roots will be the beginning and end. i will be a tree firmly planted.
i am getting taller and thicker and fuller and fairer under the care of the sun and air.
i hate nature and i will quit dropping my acorns.

every rose has it's thorn

i want a stand up kiss
i want a happy home
i want to know what i'll miss
if i remain alone
i'm sorry if i sound like a broken record
i'm sorry if you think that's cliche
i'm sorry if i sound like a broken record
but i don't know what else to say
but i don't know what else to say
i want a foreign taste
to every dinner time
i want to know my place
between the reason and rhyme
i'm sorry if i sound like a broken record
i'm sorry if you think that's cliche
i'm sorry if i sound like a broken record
but i don't know what else to say

the change of a letter

i am in the middle of muddled feelings.
i am
reeling
under the weight of my own pretenses.
fake
fälschung
falsificación
faux
allusion
illusion

tra la lop

it's been a couple of years.
alcohol alcohol and i still haven't lost my inhabitions.
they've been my friends these long years.
i am afraid of everything, especially everything that resembles me or what might make me feel alright.