fading to right light if i can bear the difference in shade

i am trying, if it's worth a try.
everyone's insides are looking a little grey, a little blue and white.
i will find the drops of life in living and increase in measure.
water logged roots will be the beginning and end. i will be a tree firmly planted.
i am getting taller and thicker and fuller and fairer under the care of the sun and air.
i hate nature and i will quit dropping my acorns.